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Shedding Your Skin

Its hard to let go of the past and move on to the future when your past holds on to so much of who you are. But when you hold on to the past you don't allow the future of possibilities to enter into your life.

There will always be nostalgic moments of reminiscing of what used to be and who you used to be. There will always be a special place in my heart for the person i was, but if we allow ourselves to be held captive by the bondage of who that person is we can never shed our skin and become who we truly want to be. We can never grow.

I have never once said change doesn't hurt. Infact it is one of the most emotionally painful transformations there is.

I used to hate change. I despised it. I hated when the seasons even changed. And now i literally face change on a daily basis. The only stability i have right now is knowing that my life is constantly changing and i have to embrace that.

I have to let go of my past, let go of who i once was, embrace this time of transformation and change and accept that i am entering into a new chapter of life full of unlimited possibilities.

The future is whatever i choose to create. And i want mine to be a beautiful and bright one!

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