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Don't try to date me

If you want to date me you have big shoes to fill. My ex husband was amazing and i will compare you to him and you will most likely fail. So dont try.

I am not looking to date. So dont try.

I am at a point in my life where i am trying very hard to focus on my career and friendships. I want to build friendships that will last a lifetime. I want to nourish them and watch them grow.

I spent all of my early years chasing boys and now i am chasing girls for friendships. I want to have a group of frienda that i can lean on and count on and that can count on me. That is my goal. Dating is my last priority. So seriously if you are trying to date me don't.

Chances are i am not interested. Or i maybe interested but i see your interactions with other women and that ship doesnt sail with me. I want to feel one of a kind and special. I want to feel like you picked me out of a crowded room and i was the one you pursued. If you are flirting with multiple women your chances are zero.

I am not attracted to looks. I am not attracted to popularity. I am attracted to personality. Whats in your heart? Whats in your soul? And these days when i see men flirting with anything they can get their hands on its a BIG turn off. Yoy may be attractive, have a good job, play sports but how you treat women is degrading. I dont respect that.

Besides, im not interested in a relationship right now. Like i said my ex husband had so many qualities that i fell hard for and you will have big shoes to fill and i will compare you to him in every aspect. I respect that you are not him but if you are not better than him then i am just wasting my time. So try if you want, but most likely i wont be interested

I have goals and dreams and many, many developing friendships that i want to continue to pursue and that is what my focus is on now.

Besides, dating a bipolar girl is a hard burden to bare and it takes a very strong man to handle that and not many men are capable of that responsibility and that is the reality of the situation.

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